will be away from wed to sun for 2nd chemo cycle
anything contact me via hp
gd luck to all taking chem spa tmr!
ciao~  ¶ 14:17 0 Comments

  here to blog again.
other than a bit of heat rash i'm fine

past few days I have been thinking of an issue
whether to take a lvls this yr or nxt yr

hmm weighing the PROS and CONS

If take this yr,
-maybe cannot cope.
-I cannot overexert myself, or my body will go kaboom
-I wun be able to work at 100% effiency
-so many things to cover so lil time
-i will be in and out of hosp= miss school...
-if side effects occur, i wun be able to come sch too
-chemotherapy might cause fatigue.
-in e end might require surgery= miss sch sumore
-may not be able to achieve gd results for a lvls


but then there will be frends and 0722 to turn to for help
den can get it done and over with faster


but if take nxt yr
-no friends?
-new environment which I may have trouble adapting to?
-econs will continue to be screwed, as this yr batch they are mixing micro and macro tgt
-the sian-ness of jc life for another yr

but then
-will be able to rest my body fully this yr
-will be able to focus better
-more time to catch up, and study
-able to handle the heavy work
-i got 2 yrs to spare [most likely only need serve NS for 2 months xD] , so stay back 1 more yr is not an issue

and sumore this yr cannot guarantee that i can take a lvl.
the chemo sessions/ surgery if needed might clash with a lvls

wah i hate dilemmas
my relatives, family and some of my close friends are advising me to take nxt yr.
hmm opinion anyone?  ¶ 18:44 0 Comments

  wow. it has been a long time since i last updated.

as most of you know now, I have germ cell tumour, a form of cancer. A mass that spreads across the chest.

was admitted to hosp on 9 May after coughing every step I walked.
first they found water surrounding my heart, so they decided to drain it away
admitted to CCU for the 1st few days
den after that a biopsy was done to confirm that i indeed have germ cell tumour.
1st cycle of chemotherapy immmediately started as the mass was expanding at a incredibly fast rate
discharged on 19 May , 11 days being spent in hosp

den went back to see the doc on 22nd may
mass has shrunk and signs are gd

so 2nd cycle of chemo will begin from 28th may to 1st june, will enter hosp again during this period. [oh man, i hate the food xD)

well, I am just glad that I am alive and kicking!
the route to recovery will be long, but I shall not fret
positive thinking's the way to go

i would like to thank all my friends and relatives who sent me well wishes and visited me during my stay in hosp. I rly appreciate all your support.

to ppl who are helping out, i also thank you from the bottom of my heart

lastly, to my dear family, who never fails to give me encouragement and support.

I WILL FIGHT ON.  ¶ 20:41 0 Comments

  how i wish it was all a dream.
it must be, eh?
but no, when I pinch myself, I can feel the pain

being dealt another blow today
doctor's tale is scary

screw it.
no more sports for me.
gdbye to playing soccer with the class, gdbye to running
gdbye to sports that are not "relaxing"

haiz there's nth i can do.
on 13 May i might just sink into severe depression mode.

but for now,
i shall just pray.  ¶ 13:54 1 Comments

  sweltering heat for the past few days
global warming has gone a step higher
air-con's not so cool anymore, might as well use fans.
save electricity lol

i think i got side effect fromt hose chemicals inserted into my body on wed
i feel so damn tired.
and my hand, still can feel the sensation sometimes >.<

not going napha tmr.
no use.
severely lacking in fitness and stamina
cardio not so gd
might as well take in august instead
and cough still a daily nuisance
going to the doc tmr to settle my cough once and for all.
but if this round of medication were to fail, i dunno what to say liao

hmm everyone is like shunning themselves away
more locked up blogs
less ppl on MSN
silent hps

I'm getting the creeps that I'm getting left behind in the rat race.
freak this jc life
so detrimental to social interaction

bored. so bored.
the weather's not so favourable for mugging
less ppl to talk to nowadays.

i miss the old days.
and i kinda miss crapping with you too  ¶ 21:37 0 Comments