Part 1: A LVLS: About 80 Days ...+365 days left so most people should know by now, I have decided to take a levels next year.
because I foresee that I will need quite a while to recover from my surgery.
Surgery will be on 21st August.
A median sternotomy will be done.

"Median sternotomy is a type of surgical procedure in which a vertical inline incision is made along the sternum, after which the sternum itself is divided, or "cracked"."

ok so I will have a wonderful scar after the surgery LOL. With broken BONES.

anyways had an appointment with my surgeon on tuesday. It went like this:

DR: Ok, to remove the tumor, we will have to break your breastbone.
Me: Ok, that settles it. Broken bones will take long time to heal. BB ALvls

DR: The risk of this surgery is bleeding, infection.
Me: Ok, every surgery got this risk...

DR: The chances of you dying is about 5%
Me: Ok, you're scaring me a bit here...why can't you phrase it nicer such as "The rate of success of the operation is 95%"

DR: But I am quite concerned about this major vein over here, it is being enveloped by the tumor, I cant see it that clearly in this CT Scan. But dun worry we will be very very careful.
Me: OK I AM DAMN SCARED NOW

and dunno why, tears suddenly welled up in my eyes. I have never been this scared in my entire life. Tried not to think about it on my way home, but to no avail.

den i surfed the Net for more info about my operation. The post-operative pain is said to be excruciating. Suddenly, I now more worried about it than the operation itself. Omg, will I be able to endure the pain?

But decided not to think too much about it le. Whatever will be, will be. For now, I will just pray hard and hope everything goes smoothly.

yawn so tired la, I shall continue part 2 of my post tmr.
Be warned that part 2 will be quite an emo post LOL  ¶ 22:04