hmm hospital appointment today
had to take early leave

i think i have grown sian of CMPB.
everytime b4 going NUH must go there to collect payment slip.
dam troublesome.
with more appointments coming= more trips zzz

so today met with a specialist
who apparently did not know anything
BECAUSE THAT BUGGER DOCTOR FROM LAST WEEK LOST MY X-RAY
zzz anyways got checked from head to toe,
and took blood samples (4 tubes! meaning that I have contributed 6 tubes of my blood in 2 weeks >.<)

so more appointments coming my way
need ultrasound of the heart la, lung breathing test, XRay, CT yadda yadda yadda
haiz meaning that i will be missing more lessons
omg i am now struggling to catch up
with bloody flu, phlegm and cough still on
starting to worry abt a lvls...
will I be prepared?

anyway final results will be out on 13/5
if the mass is small, it will be an operation (gulp!)
if the mass is large, some needle bio-whatever will be conducted

i feel so hopeless for once.
why can't I just be a normal, healthy kid like I used to be?
things just went spiralling down since I entered JC.
friends gone,
cca problems,
deceptions,
illnesses,
fatigue,
bad decisions,
underperformance.

oh well
can't change God's will.
life's liddat, eh
one moment you're flying, the next moment you come crashing down to earth...  ¶ 22:22